Angry Conversations with God

I revisited this book after having read it 4-5 years ago.

Over the past few years, I have read tons of books similar to this one and I came to a conclusion that while they are a good reminder that we all struggle, they don't help us in other ways. Each and every relationship with God is unique and the way He speaks to us is different.

We are all uniquely and wonderfully made in Him,

Books like these cannot guide us if we pray like this or if we do exactly what this person did, God will do this. There is simply no formula. When we read the bible, there are various ways people approach problems and God answers in different ways.

Back in 2014, I remember struggling to talk to God and people will use their experience, bible experiences and even books like these to help me... but none of them worked. I would get upset because I couldn't understand why when I follow exactly what people did, read exactly what they read, had the exact mentality and yet God didn't seem to respond to me. I come to the conclusion that my experiences are unique, my wounds are unique, I am unique; so God had a different way to handle me and shape me. Even the way we communicate is different.

Each and every journey with God is unique... and I'm still discovering mine's.

If you are struggling with your relationship with God, just ask Him, while others can share with you their journey, at the end of the day, it is between you and God.

Happy New Year!

Marunouchi, Tokyo

This picture still remains to be one of my favourites taken this year <3

I just had a sudden urge to talk about the things I learned this year:

1. the Lord will give us the desires of our hearts at the right time

2. Everything will be done according to His timing (the perfect timing)

3. The Lord is good

4. Trust in Him... you won't regret it!! (I promise)

5. He will give us the desires of our hearts... He really will... just be patient!!!

6. No one.... nothing will love us as much as Jesus loves us... seriously, just let that sink in for a moment... no one and nothing will... 

Do not read

A second home filled with God's love? Yuck...

The way they make pretentious smiles disgusts me, the way they speak of love grosses me out... They are NOT living out God's word, they are just a bunch of losers who have found a place to pick on others and show self worthiness.

Relationship and friendships are all a display of selfishness and power. There is no love there.

When I see those, who used to be my best friends at one point, and try to reach out, yet, they make it seem as if I do not know them... We used to be friends, we used to share our struggles, achievements... But they do not want to talk to me... Their eyes show no love...

What is Love? What is friendship?

Serving...

photo source: shruthithinkingaloud.wordpress.com

What is the core when we are serving?

1. To serve because we love God?

2. To serve because we want others to love God?

The point I want to bring out is that we must always be clear on WHO we are serving and WHY we are serving. I have encountered brothers and sisters who serve and who love because they simply love brothers and sisters and friends... or they simply want people to be attracted to Christianity.

I hope we realize that:
1. We love because He loved us
2. We serve Him and ONLY Him, We serve others to serve Him

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. (Colossians 3:23, 24 NIV)

feel free to comment your thoughts... agreements and disagreements

now... what is Freedom of Speech?

I find it absolutely ridiculous …. and find a huge disappointment at the policies that the school systems in Canada is implementing.

What were they thinking…?

1. It is ok to freely talk about being LGBTQ (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transexual) It is even ok to admit you are one and be "proud" (OK, this part can be acceptable, after all, we all are here to learn about accepting one another)

2. It is alright to talk about Islamic beliefs, Buddhism beliefs… etc. In fact, the teachers encourage students to do so. (again, this is ok, since we are trying to share with everyone what we think, believe, etc)

3. Why can’t those wish to celebrate Christian holidays also? Why must Christmas be refered to as “Happy Holidays” and it is wrong to say Merry Christmas? (Please go and look up the meaning of this holiday,  it was created for the celebration of the birth of Jesus Christ... not made for your family gatherings and present giving holiday, please be respectful. If you intend to "steal" someone's holiday and celebration, at least be nice about it...)

I am reminded of a news story I heard about a year ago:

A Student is suspended for wearing a "Life is wasted without Jesus." themed t-shirt (isn't this kid, like others just trying to express his beliefs?)

two questions:

Why is everyone so against Christianity? Why do Christians not have "equal" treatment?

AND

What does freedom of speech mean? Why are there so many contradictions when it comes to this right?

Brokenness might not be a bad thing

photo credits: http://www.oxfordcounty.ca/

I remember attending a sermon some few months ago. The pastor asked us: what must be broken in order to be used? answer was eggs. He said like eggs, we must be broken in order to be used by God.

Do not be afraid to be broken. It might be God's plan to help you so He can use you!